“Are We There Yet?” | Learning to Trust God in the Desert

“Are we there yet?” There’s a chance you’ve heard that (or said it) from the back of a minivan when you’re hours from your destination and there’s still another 400 miles until the next Buc-ees. When we’re waiting on your spouse, next promotion, or next vacation, life can feel the same way. So when life isn’t going our pace, how can we trust that God is still good?

This week, Kyle Ranson unpacks the story of the Israelites wandering for 40 years in the desert and shows how even when it feels like God is running late, He’s right on time. And even while we wait, He still gives us everything we need.

Recorded live at Crossroads Church in Cincinnati, Ohio.

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    - (music) My God will do it what only He can do.
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    He has power to heal, power to save,
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    the power that rises when we start to pray
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    that's who my God is and I believe
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    He has power to move, power to change,
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    bring in the beauty from all of the pain
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    that's who my God is, that's who my God is
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    - Hey everyone, my name is Emily and welcome to Crossroads.
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    We are a church that gathers all over,
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    in buildings like this one and from restaurants
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    to bars, coffee shops and living rooms
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    and dining rooms across the globe.
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    I am personally so glad that you are here with us,
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    no matter what you believe about God.
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    And we believe the Bible to be true.
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    It's not just a book of ancient stories and old traditions,
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    but it actually matters for our lives.
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    And today you are going to be hearing about
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    the epic wonders of God and how stories so big
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    and so bold don't just matter now,
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    but they will continue to matter for centuries.
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    (music)
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    - Well, welcome to Crossroads. My name is Greg.
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    Whether you're in one of our sites
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    or you're watching online, you're here at a perfect time
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    because we're kicking off a series where we're looking
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    at the epic wonders of God as told through the Bible.
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    You see, the Bible isn't just this collection
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    of antiquated stories, it's a living legacy.
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    And from the very first page of that book,
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    it weaves through time where it intersects your life today.
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    Now, if you're new, I gotta tell you,
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    we don't make any assumptions about what you believe
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    about the book called the Bible,
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    or even the God that we're here to celebrate.
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    But we're going to start our time in a way
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    that we're going to sing to Him because He's not ancient,
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    He's not old, He's alive, and He's worthy of celebrating.
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    So let's get up on our feet.
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    We're glad you're with us today.
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    - All right.
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    You sing this with me.
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    - God, we give you praise because You're worthy.
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    God, we give you praise because You've been faithful to us
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    even in moments where we haven't been faithful to You.
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    And yet you still allow us to come to You freely and openly
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    because that's the kind of God You are.
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    You know our faults and You know that
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    we need You more than anything,
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    and You don't withhold Yourself from us, You don't.
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    You say, "Here, My arms are open wide. Would you come?"
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    I love that line, praise him all creatures here below.
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    That's what we are, we are Your creation, God
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    and Your creation stands in this room
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    and offers up praise to Your name.
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    I thank You for who You are, for who You've always been.
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    You're the reason we sing.
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    You're the reason we worship.
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    It's in Jesus's mighty name we pray. Amen. Amen.
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    Come on. He's so good.
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    Love that song, man, it's an old hymn.
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    If you love it, praise Him,
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    Praise God from whom all blessings flow.
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    Everything that we have flows from Him.
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    It's the reason that we give our money
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    and we do something like that and trust Him
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    with our finances is because we recognize that
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    our finances and our blessings don't come from us,
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    they come from Him.
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    And so I give every month, I tithe
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    because I know the Lord is good and I trust Him.
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    So you can do that with me if you'd like
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    at Crossroads.net/give.
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    Hey, I love to worship in this room together. It's amazing.
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    Why don't you find somebody next to you,
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    give them a high five, tell them it's good to see you,
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    tell them your name if you don't know them,
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    then you can have a seat.
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    - We have some super exciting things coming up
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    that I don't want you to miss.
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    First Go Trips for 2026 are open and on Crossroads.net.
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    I would love for you to check them out and sign up there.
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    And don't worry if you're hesitant, I was too.
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    Last May my best friend encourage me
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    to go on a trip to Nepal.
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    Very hesitant at first.
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    I expected to go and pour out until I felt empty and tired.
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    But actually what happened was God filled me up
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    and I felt fueled to do more with my life.
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    Witnessing our group tackle real issues
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    like poverty, injustice, and spiritual warfare
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    is something that has literally forever changed me.
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    So don't miss the opportunity.
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    The second thing is Revival.
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    Revival is happening October 31st to November 2nd
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    out on our Base Camp land.
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    And truly I went last year, it was the best experience.
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    I witnessed God and experienced Him moving
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    in a way that I never had before.
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    This is something that I would love for you to be a part of.
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    If you're a part of our Anywhere Community,
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    this is for you as well.
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    We want to see you and we want to see you thrive
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    in community in person on our land.
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    We have so many special things planned for you.
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    This is taking place of our Anywhere Weekend
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    that we've done in the past,
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    and it's going to be ten times better.
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    So we would love to do whatever we can to help you get here
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    and make it feel like home.
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    For more information, go to crossroads.net/anywhere.
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    I'm so excited to get into our new series, Epic Wonders.
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    And whether you're familiar with them or not,
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    I bet you're wondering how epic can these stories actually be.
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    - Hi everybody.
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    Welcome to church.
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    Today we're going to talk about God's Epic Wonders.
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    Are you ready? Okay.
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    [high voice] Daniel in the Lion's Den.
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    Daniel worked very hard for the king
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    but was thrown in the lion's den,
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    Ohh!
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    because his prayers to God
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    were made a crime by jealous men.
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    Everybody say jealous men. - Jealous men.
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    - That was really bad. [laughter]
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    Anyway,
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    God sent an angel to save him.
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    So, brave Daniel wasn't ripped limb from limb
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    and his guts spilled everywhere,
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    and his bones be smashed up.
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    None of that happened.
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    - Be honest, some of you didn't really notice
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    the difference between the helium voice
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    and my normal voice, did you? [laughter]
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    "Like, I don't get it. Was there a joke there?
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    I don't really understand."
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    My name is Kyle if we've never met before.
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    I'm our Lead Pastor here at Crossroads,
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    and you're joining us for week one of a series
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    I'm pumped about called Epic Wonders,
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    where we're looking at these epic, crazy,
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    beyond normal stories of God in the Bible.
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    Now, there's lots of stuff in the Bible.
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    Maybe your perceptions of what the Bible actually is
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    is like a rulebook full of do's and don'ts.
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    And there is some of that stuff in there,
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    but it's not really what the Bible is.
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    Instead, the Bible is stories about thousands of people
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    over thousands of years trying to follow God.
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    And sometimes these stories erupt way past the normal
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    into this space of being epic and wonderful.
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    And we're going to examine some of those stories
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    over these next six or so weeks.
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    And the reason is not just because they're crazy
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    and cool to look at, it's because
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    God actually commands us to look at them.
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    He says this in Psalm 145:
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    One generation shall commend your works to another,
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    and shall declare your mighty acts
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    on the glorious splendor of your majesty
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    and on your wondrous works I will meditate.
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    They will speak of the might of your awesome deeds,
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    and I will declare your greatness.
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    Now all those things, mighty acts, wondrous works,
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    awesome deeds, that's what we're describing
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    as epic wonders of God.
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    And what God says is the reason to study these,
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    the reason to look at them and examine them is because
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    there's something unique you learn about Him in them.
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    What is that? Well, it's the very next verse.
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    It says they shall pour forth
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    the fame of your abundant goodness
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    and shall sing aloud of your righteousness.
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    In other words, when you study these stories
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    what you'll see is that God is always good
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    and God is always right.
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    And in the craziest big stories,
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    we learn this very personal truth.
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    We're doing this series because no matter who you are,
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    whether it's your first time in church
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    or your thousandth time or whatever,
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    we all need to know that more
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    and not not at a head level, but at a heart level
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    that God is good.
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    Not abstractly for somebody else, but for us.
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    And He's right.
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    Not cosmically, over eons, though, that's true,
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    but day by day in my life, the way He guides me.
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    Hoping that all of us take a step in that direction today.
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    Let's pray before we go any further.
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    God, thank You for the truth of Scripture.
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    Thank You for these pictures of Your epic wonders.
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    Help us get exactly what You want from these stories. Amen.
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    Today is one of the most epic wonders of all,
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    the exodus of the people of Israel away from Egypt.
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    And specifically this moment where
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    this giant pillar of fire erupts out of the desert
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    into the night sky by night,
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    and becomes a giant pillar of cloud by day.
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    Crazy, crazy story.
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    Now to set the scene, it's pretty dramatic.
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    I kind of want to do it in the movie trailer voice thing.
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    Can I do that? - Yeah.
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    - (deep voice) In a world full of pyramids and sand
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    and probably other stuff,
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    a bunch of crazy things happened and people left,
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    and Pharaoh chased them, and God showed up,
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    and it was crazy.
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    This is the Exodus.
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    - (normal voice) If you've never talked
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    in a voice that deep, that's amazing.
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    It's like it's straight power.
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    There's a reason God doesn't let me have a voice like that.
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    He's like, "You're going to be on the high end
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    of the register because you can't.
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    You can't handle that one."
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    If I like -- can I say one more thing with that voice, though?
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    Just one more thing?
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    (deep voice) You're in good hands with Allstate. [laughter]
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    (normal voice) It's awesome, you guys.
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    Seriously, you need to get that effect
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    and just put it on all the time.
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    That's amazing. Absolutely incredible.
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    Now, if you're not familiar with the Exodus,
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    it is the backbone, it is the spine.
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    It's the foundation of the story of God
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    and the Old Testament.
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    We've got two sections of the Bible,
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    the Old Testament written before Jesus,
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    and the New Testament written after Jesus,
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    it's the lens through which the whole thing gets interpreted.
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    But if you go to the Old Testament,
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    the Exodus is the primary story.
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    It's where we learn about who God is and what He's like
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    and how to follow Him, all those sorts of things.
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    Moses is one of the central characters in there,
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    if you've heard of him.
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    The quick backstory to get us to
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    this pillar of fire, pillar of cloud
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    is that for 430 years the people of God
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    have been in Egypt, most of that time as slaves.
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    And they've been crying out to God saying,
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    "God, how long is this going to take?
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    And we're tired. And do You even see us?"
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    And so God sends Moses as a rescuer.
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    Moses goes to Pharaoh and basically says,
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    "If you don't let my people go,
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    this horrible thing is going to happen. A plague."
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    And nine of them happen in a row.
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    And Pharaoh still says no.
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    And then the 10th one comes, the hammer from God.
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    God says, "If you don't let my people go, Pharaoh,
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    I'm going to kill the firstborn male
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    in all households in Egypt,
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    not just person, animal too, all going to die."
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    And Pharaoh says, "Not convinced. Go ahead and try."
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    And so God does.
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    And in the middle of the night, Pharaoh,
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    as he's weeping over his own dead son,
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    Scripture says, he demands that Israel leave.
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    Not just you can go. He literally chases him out.
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    Get out of here right now.
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    And this massive group of people head off into the desert.
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    Just how many people? We have no idea.
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    The Bible doesn't say. Just kidding.
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    There's a book called Numbers and it says a lot of numbers.
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    If you're an accountant, you should read it.
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    You're going to love it.
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    If you're not an accountant, you should still read it.
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    You're not going to love it. Just warning you.
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    In Numbers 146 it says that there were
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    603,550 men of fighting age,
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    that's over the age of 20 in the nation of Israel.
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    Based on what we know about household sizes at the time,
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    we can extrapolate,
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    and that's about 2 million people on the low side.
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    So 2 million people walk into the desert at night.
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    Now we're all caught up.
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    Here's the specific section of the story
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    we're going to spend all of our time on today,
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    Exodus 13, beginning in verse 17.
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    So they leave in the middle of the night,
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    and they don't just walk into darkness.
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    As they step out of the city, the craziest thing happens.
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    A pillar of fire, a tornado of flame shoots into the sky.
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    Not a small pillar, by the way.
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    There's 2 million people and it says it gave them light,
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    a pillar of fire so big that it could
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    give light and warmth to 2 million people.
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    In the morning, when the people wake up,
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    it's changed into a cloud.
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    Now it's a swirling tornado that gives shade
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    and moisture to 2 million people.
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    The size of this thing is insane.
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    The scale is one word, epic.
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    It's also packed with powerful truth, this story,
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    not just epic, but power.
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    Let's start at the beginning of the story,
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    the verse I just read to begin with, Exodus 13:17. It says:
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    Just so we're all tracking,
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    there is a short way and there's a long way.
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    Now the people of Israel,
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    they live in a land called Goshen,
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    and it was in the corner of Egypt.
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    It was the a fertile area right up in this area.
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    And there was a road.
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    It was the short way to the Promised Land,
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    which the Israelites knew where the Promised Land was.
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    Generations ago it had been promised to Abraham.
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    They knew it, right where it was, and they knew the path.
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    It was the I-75 of the day.
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    The Romans would later rename it the Via Maris.
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    It was a road that was literally a walk on the beach
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    that went right along the Mediterranean Sea,
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    on the sand, all the way to the Promised Land.
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    It was the short way, about 150 miles,
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    which today you and I, this would take us,
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    walking, approximately forever.
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    Because we get all excited about 10,000 steps.
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    We're like, "I got 10,000 steps in."
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    If you had a time machine
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    and you told people back then you walk 10,000 steps,
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    they'd be like, "Did you break your ankle?
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    What happened? I'm so sorry. That's not --"
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    They were used to walking like 10 to 15 miles a day.
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    And so this entire journey, if you're going slow
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    a couple of weeks, tops.
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    This is what they're thinking as they head out.
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    But when they exit Egypt, what meets them
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    is this giant pillar of fire
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    and this giant pillar of cloud.
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    And instead of going the short way,
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    instead it takes the road through the desert the long way.
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    And what Israel doesn't know when they walk out
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    is that they'll be on this path for 40 years,
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    stopping, turning around, going back, 40 straight years.
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    Now, if they knew that,
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    I promise none of them would have left.
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    There's like, "You're telling me
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    there's a two week option or a 40 year option?
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    You're choosing the 40 year option, God?
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    I don't really feel like I want to follow You right now."
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    They didn't know it's 40 years.
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    They did know they obviously were not taking the shortcut.
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    That's not what they were going to take in life.
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    And some of us, we feel like this is God in us.
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    We feel like God's gone, like, "Hey,
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    other people are going to get the shortcut.
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    But you're not.
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    They're going to get the fast pass,
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    but you're not going to live the fast pass."
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    We look at people who just seems like
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    they just sort of woke up
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    and everything happened right for them.
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    They got a great job and a great house
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    and met the right person
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    and everything just kind of breaking their way
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    suddenly and instantaneously.
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    Now, before you have kids, you'll hear people say
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    this thing that you think is a cliche.
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    It's that when you go on a road trip with kids,
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    they will say, "Are we there yet?"
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    And you're like, "Surely they don't actually do that."
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    They do.
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    When you go to target and you're in your driveway,
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    they're like, "Are we there yet?" That's kids.
  • 00:35:53
    The adult version of are we there yet
  • 00:35:56
    is I should have arrived by now.
  • 00:35:58
    And many of us in our journey of life
  • 00:36:00
    this is what we say to God,
  • 00:36:01
    "It feels like I should have arrived by now."
  • 00:36:03
    Maybe you're in high school and it feels like
  • 00:36:05
    I should know what I want to do after high school by now.
  • 00:36:07
    Or you're in college and I should know
  • 00:36:09
    what I want a major in by now, or what I do after college.
  • 00:36:11
    Or I see everybody else dating somebody,
  • 00:36:13
    and I should be engaged by now.
  • 00:36:14
    I should be married by now or should have kids by now.
  • 00:36:17
    I should have the house and the two and a half kids
  • 00:36:19
    and the dog and the whole thing by now.
  • 00:36:21
    I should be promoted by now.
  • 00:36:22
    I should have found my calling by now.
  • 00:36:23
    I should have the right house by now, the right car by now.
  • 00:36:26
    The professional accolades I want by now,
  • 00:36:28
    the sense of peace that I want by now.
  • 00:36:30
    All of us have these places in these moments in life
  • 00:36:32
    where we feel like we're on the long road
  • 00:36:36
    and we just don't understand why it hasn't happened by now.
  • 00:36:41
    Now, I think that's always been a basic human thing,
  • 00:36:45
    but you can make an argument, a good one,
  • 00:36:47
    that it's worse than it ever has been.
  • 00:36:49
    Read this article from Psychology Today,
  • 00:36:51
    written just this year. It says:
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    You don't have to be a young adult to feel this way,
  • 00:37:10
    but certainly if I look back on my life,
  • 00:37:13
    that's exactly how I felt, exactly.
  • 00:37:16
    When I was 22, graduating college, it felt like
  • 00:37:19
    all of my friends were engaged and getting married
  • 00:37:21
    and then inviting me to be in their wedding
  • 00:37:23
    and pay lots of money to rent a tuxedo for no reason.
  • 00:37:25
    Let's not do that to each other.
  • 00:37:27
    And I go to these weddings and I'd be like,
  • 00:37:29
    "Man, I'm falling behind.
  • 00:37:31
    I should have found the one by now.
  • 00:37:33
    I should be getting engaged by now.
  • 00:37:34
    And instead, all I've got is a string of failed relationships
  • 00:37:37
    and no prospects on the horizon."
  • 00:37:40
    At 23, I was in my first job.
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    It was a great job at a great company
  • 00:37:43
    doing exactly what you would do if you were in my major.
  • 00:37:46
    It was like, awesome, it was perfect,
  • 00:37:48
    except for the fact that I knew
  • 00:37:50
    it wasn't what I was made to do.
  • 00:37:52
    I knew it wasn't right.
  • 00:37:55
    And I would go to work every day, like,
  • 00:37:56
    "Oh my gosh, I'm falling behind.
  • 00:37:58
    I spent four years aiming at this thing
  • 00:38:02
    that's not even the right target.
  • 00:38:03
    I am four years behind," is how I felt.
  • 00:38:07
    Even when I came to Crossroads.
  • 00:38:08
    I got a job here fairly young, so at 29 or so.
  • 00:38:11
    I'd been around for about six years,
  • 00:38:13
    and I was in the same job for six straight years, same job.
  • 00:38:18
    And I felt like I should have been promoted by now.
  • 00:38:21
    Someone should have noticed I'm doing a good job
  • 00:38:24
    and asked me to do more by now.
  • 00:38:26
    I should be in leadership by now.
  • 00:38:27
    It was a call I thought in my life,
  • 00:38:28
    this should have happened by now, and it wasn't.
  • 00:38:31
    And this one really threw me for a loop
  • 00:38:33
    because as you're staring at 30,
  • 00:38:35
    this was my thought anyway.
  • 00:38:37
    I said, man, in your 20s people will say
  • 00:38:41
    "you're full of potential."
  • 00:38:42
    Which if they say that, so, you know,
  • 00:38:44
    that's both an encouragement and an insult.
  • 00:38:46
    It's like you're great
  • 00:38:48
    and you got some things to work on over here.
  • 00:38:51
    That's your 20s.
  • 00:38:52
    And then I fast forward past 30s to 40s,
  • 00:38:54
    and I went, "You know, I've never heard
  • 00:38:56
    a 49 year old described as full of potential."
  • 00:39:00
    So the 30s felt like I'm staring at the decade
  • 00:39:03
    where it's either got to happen or not.
  • 00:39:04
    Like time is short. Let's go. We got to get there.
  • 00:39:08
    And so I wasn't looking for another opportunity,
  • 00:39:10
    but one came my way anyway.
  • 00:39:11
    I was offered a job with an upside of triple my salary
  • 00:39:14
    and I left. I quit.
  • 00:39:17
    Because what I saw at Crossroads
  • 00:39:18
    was the people who got promoted oftentimes
  • 00:39:20
    had these impressive corporate resumes.
  • 00:39:21
    And so I thought, "Great, I'll take a shortcut.
  • 00:39:23
    I'll go get an impressive corporate resume,
  • 00:39:25
    and then I'll come back and I'll lead something here sometime."
  • 00:39:28
    That was my literal plan.
  • 00:39:29
    And I left, I quit, I went and talked to Brian.
  • 00:39:33
    He was very gracious. He prayed for me.
  • 00:39:35
    And then 15 minutes later he came and found me
  • 00:39:37
    and he said, "Hey, you know, you said this thing
  • 00:39:39
    about hoping you'll get to work here again someday.
  • 00:39:42
    Why don't you just never leave?
  • 00:39:44
    Like, why don't you just stay instead of come back?
  • 00:39:47
    Because I've always seen more for you
  • 00:39:48
    and I do see more for you.
  • 00:39:50
    And I felt like you're a lifer here."
  • 00:39:52
    And all these, all these great things.
  • 00:39:54
    And so I respected Brian and went away
  • 00:39:55
    and prayed about it, and I un-quit, decided to stay.
  • 00:39:59
    Which he let me do.
  • 00:40:01
    And you know what happened immediately afterwards?
  • 00:40:05
    Nothing. Nothing at all for a year and a half.
  • 00:40:14
    And I just felt like, "God, I'm trying to follow you.
  • 00:40:20
    I'm looking to You to lead me.
  • 00:40:23
    Why is it taking so long?"
  • 00:40:25
    Everything in me screamed, "I am ready to arrive,"
  • 00:40:28
    and yet God, me following Him as best I can,
  • 00:40:32
    seemed to be saying, "No, you're you're actually not.
  • 00:40:36
    You're actually not."
  • 00:40:37
    Now, when you follow God,
  • 00:40:39
    you have this choice to make, you see.
  • 00:40:41
    You can trust His timing and His direction, or your own.
  • 00:40:49
    And what determines whether you trust God
  • 00:40:51
    is how you answer two questions related to epic wonders.
  • 00:40:55
    Do I believe that God is good,
  • 00:40:57
    not abstractly for somebody else, but for me?
  • 00:40:59
    And do I believe that God is right,
  • 00:41:01
    not just cosmically, across eons,
  • 00:41:03
    but day by day in my life?
  • 00:41:05
    Do I believe these two things?
  • 00:41:06
    It's exactly what it presses on.
  • 00:41:09
    See, God would say, "I know.
  • 00:41:11
    I know the plans I have for you.
  • 00:41:13
    I know why it's taking too long.
  • 00:41:16
    I know, it's because I'm trying to protect you."
  • 00:41:19
    This is what He says in Exodus 13,
  • 00:41:21
    right after He has them not take the short way.
  • 00:41:38
    God goes, "You can't go that way. You can't.
  • 00:41:41
    You're not. You're not ready for
  • 00:41:44
    what you're going to face when you get there.
  • 00:41:46
    You're not ready for that way."
  • 00:41:47
    But notice that last, last line.
  • 00:41:49
    He says, "They went up ready for battle."
  • 00:41:52
    God goes, "You're ready for some battle,
  • 00:41:54
    but not that battle."
  • 00:41:56
    And really interestingly, this is the Philistine country.
  • 00:41:58
    Maybe you've heard of the Philistines before.
  • 00:42:00
    They'll eventually become the arch nemesis of Israel
  • 00:42:04
    about 400 years in the future,
  • 00:42:06
    most notably when David fights Goliath.
  • 00:42:08
    Goliath is the Philistine champion, and Israel will win.
  • 00:42:13
    There'll be victory, but God says at this point, no.
  • 00:42:17
    Because at this point,
  • 00:42:18
    the Philistines are also not that people.
  • 00:42:20
    The Philistines are a different people.
  • 00:42:22
    They were literally pirate Vikings.
  • 00:42:24
    They were known as the sea people,
  • 00:42:25
    if you go back and you look through ancient literature
  • 00:42:27
    And what they controlled was the Mediterranean coast,
  • 00:42:31
    that short path was guarded by them.
  • 00:42:34
    They were on the water.
  • 00:42:35
    And you can bet if they saw a column
  • 00:42:37
    of 2 million people spread across the desert,
  • 00:42:40
    they'd have been like, "Awesome, easy pickings.
  • 00:42:42
    Let's go get some stuff."
  • 00:42:44
    That's 100% what would have happened.
  • 00:42:46
    And so God says, "No, no, you're not --
  • 00:42:47
    You're not ready. You're not ready."
  • 00:42:50
    See, God's timing,
  • 00:42:52
    God's timing is always for our protection. Always.
  • 00:42:56
    Because God says, "I'm always good and I'm always right."
  • 00:43:00
    There's a section later on in Exodus
  • 00:43:01
    where the author is reflecting back
  • 00:43:05
    on how God managed timing with Israel.
  • 00:43:09
    Because Israel just goes out
  • 00:43:10
    and they just complain the whole time.
  • 00:43:12
    They're like, "God, this is taking too long.
  • 00:43:14
    God, this is crazy."
  • 00:43:15
    And I know what you and I think, right.
  • 00:43:17
    We're like, "Listen, if I had a giant cloud to follow,
  • 00:43:21
    it wouldn't really matter if I walked a long path,
  • 00:43:25
    you know, like, I would know that God was with me.
  • 00:43:28
    I would -- I would just, I would I feel a sense of peace.
  • 00:43:30
    I would be totally fine."
  • 00:43:33
    No you wouldn't.
  • 00:43:34
    Israel wasn't. They weren't.
  • 00:43:37
    And this is the land of market research
  • 00:43:39
    and consumer packaged goods
  • 00:43:40
    and so I'll just present it to you
  • 00:43:41
    as a representative sample.
  • 00:43:42
    2 million people. That's a representative sample of us.
  • 00:43:46
    We would respond the same way as they would, 100%.
  • 00:43:51
    We're just not ready.
  • 00:43:53
    Speaking the timing and protection,
  • 00:43:54
    God said this in Exodus 23, reflecting back, He says:
  • 00:43:57
    I will not drive them out from before you in one year,
  • 00:43:59
    (the enemies of Israel) lest the land become desolate
  • 00:44:03
    and the wild beasts multiply against you.
  • 00:44:07
    Little by little I will drive them out from before you,
  • 00:44:11
    until you have increased in possess the land. ***
  • 00:44:15
    God goes, "You can't go faster,
  • 00:44:18
    because the stuff you'll face, the forget the people,
  • 00:44:21
    the wild animals will run you over."
  • 00:44:24
    If you want to picture what that would look like,
  • 00:44:26
    it would be like this.
  • 00:44:33
    Oh, let's see it again. Slow it down.
  • 00:44:36
    Can we see it? Yeah.
  • 00:44:41
    Oh! Again? Can we see it again?
  • 00:44:45
    Yeah. Go. Okay. Yeah.
  • 00:44:46
    That's enough. Stop it! Oh! Woo woo!
  • 00:44:55
    Every mom in here is like, "Is he okay?"
  • 00:44:58
    He is. He's fine. That's one --
  • 00:45:00
    That's one of my son Eli's best friends Drew.
  • 00:45:02
    His dad sent me that video.
  • 00:45:04
    He was like, "One day you're going to need this for church."
  • 00:45:10
    Today's the day. Perfect picture.
  • 00:45:15
    God goes, "That's what will happen.
  • 00:45:17
    You want to go fast.
  • 00:45:19
    I need to make you strong first.
  • 00:45:21
    You can't handle what's coming your way."
  • 00:45:24
    God says you need to increase, the last line of that,
  • 00:45:27
    until you have increased.
  • 00:45:29
    Increased, by the way, the context is not
  • 00:45:32
    2 million people become 3 million people.
  • 00:45:34
    That's not what it means.
  • 00:45:35
    It is an internal individual, you will grow fruit.
  • 00:45:38
    You will grow strength.
  • 00:45:40
    Your character will solidify.
  • 00:45:41
    You'll get resilience and perseverance
  • 00:45:43
    and all of the things you need
  • 00:45:44
    to actually stay in the fight.
  • 00:45:47
    And man, God says, "My timing is always right
  • 00:45:52
    and I'm always good, you can trust it."
  • 00:45:56
    God says there's actually two two types of time.
  • 00:45:58
    According to God, there is something He calls proper time
  • 00:46:03
    and there is not proper time.
  • 00:46:05
    The right time, the time that's now and you're ready,
  • 00:46:08
    and then the wrong time.
  • 00:46:11
    And what you and I have to decide
  • 00:46:12
    is who's qualified to read the clock.
  • 00:46:16
    It says this in 1 Peter 5:6:
  • 00:46:19
    Humble yourselves, therefore,
  • 00:46:20
    under the mighty hand of God,
  • 00:46:23
    so that at the proper time He might exalt you.
  • 00:46:27
    I don't know where you are in your life,
  • 00:46:29
    and if you're standing and you're like,
  • 00:46:31
    "I mean, as far as as far as I can tell,
  • 00:46:33
    we're ready, like, let's go. It is time."
  • 00:46:38
    The choice you have to make is
  • 00:46:40
    am I most qualified to answer that question
  • 00:46:43
    about my life or God?
  • 00:46:44
    God who says he knows all of my days
  • 00:46:46
    before one of them ever came to be.
  • 00:46:47
    God who knows every hair on my head.
  • 00:46:49
    Who's more qualified to determine the timing of my life?
  • 00:46:52
    Who's more qualified to say proper, not proper?
  • 00:46:55
    Well, God would say, "I am, I am."
  • 00:46:59
    Peter knew something about this.
  • 00:47:01
    He was one of the followers of Jesus who wrote those words.
  • 00:47:04
    You might know Him as Saint Peter, right?
  • 00:47:06
    He's got kind of big famous deal, right?
  • 00:47:09
    Two books in the Bible, 1 Peter and 2 Peter.
  • 00:47:12
    Imagine he walked up to you and he said, "Hey,
  • 00:47:16
    I would like to pray over your life
  • 00:47:19
    about this proper time thing. Can I do that?"
  • 00:47:22
    Would you? You'd be like, "Yeah, right. Like sure.
  • 00:47:25
    Peter, you can pray for me. That sounds amazing."
  • 00:47:27
    If I said Peter will be down front at the end of service
  • 00:47:30
    to pray for whoever wants prayer,
  • 00:47:32
    there'd be a line out the door. That's awesome.
  • 00:47:35
    Well, let me tell you what he'd pray for you
  • 00:47:37
    because this is exactly what he says
  • 00:47:39
    right after talking about the proper time. Here's his prayer:
  • 00:47:57
    Imagine Peter prays that for you, you'd be like,
  • 00:47:59
    "Wow, Peter. Amazing words. Thank you so much.
  • 00:48:02
    I feel so blessed right now. So blessed.
  • 00:48:05
    Love the part about strengthening,
  • 00:48:07
    settling and encouraging me, establishing me.
  • 00:48:09
    Oh my gosh, that was amazing.
  • 00:48:13
    But I think my ears played tricks on me
  • 00:48:15
    because it sounded like you also prayed
  • 00:48:17
    that I would have to suffer for a while.
  • 00:48:21
    That's not what you said, right?"
  • 00:48:22
    He's like, "That's exactly, exactly what I said.
  • 00:48:25
    That is 100% what I said."
  • 00:48:27
    Why? Because Peter knows something,
  • 00:48:29
    that God's goal is not to take you on the way
  • 00:48:33
    that takes the shortest.
  • 00:48:34
    God's goal is to take you on the path
  • 00:48:36
    that makes you the strongest.
  • 00:48:38
    Those are completely different paths
  • 00:48:40
    and on one of them, God shows up and does something,
  • 00:48:43
    on the other, you take the shortcut
  • 00:48:46
    because you just can't wait.
  • 00:48:48
    You just want to get there.
  • 00:48:51
    And I know some of us are like, "You know, no,
  • 00:48:53
    I'm content to wait and I'm just,
  • 00:48:55
    I'm really I'm focused on my character
  • 00:48:57
    just like God wants me to be."
  • 00:48:58
    And and I would say that's awesome.
  • 00:49:00
    Can we talk to your friends?
  • 00:49:02
    Because they'll tell us what you complain about.
  • 00:49:05
    And if you talk to my friends
  • 00:49:08
    they'll tell you what I complain about.
  • 00:49:09
    It's not, "I just --
  • 00:49:11
    I just wish God would make me more patient faster."
  • 00:49:17
    No, no. Same with you. Same with you.
  • 00:49:23
    See, we're so focused on our accomplishments.
  • 00:49:26
    God's more focused on our character.
  • 00:49:29
    And so what would happen if we stopped asking
  • 00:49:31
    why is this taking so long and instead said,
  • 00:49:33
    "God, what do You want to build in me?
  • 00:49:35
    What do You want to strengthen in me?
  • 00:49:37
    What is it in me You want to fix and make better?"
  • 00:49:42
    What if we let go of this feeling of, like,
  • 00:49:44
    we're behind when we're following God?
  • 00:49:46
    What if we let go of that?
  • 00:49:47
    By the way, parents, if we don't, what will happen
  • 00:49:50
    is we'll pass it on to our kids. That's what happens.
  • 00:49:53
    I've found myself lately saying things in my house,
  • 00:49:56
    like, "You're 11 years old.
  • 00:49:57
    You should X, Y, and Z by now."
  • 00:50:01
    And this is what we do, we just passed it on
  • 00:50:02
    to the generation after us.
  • 00:50:04
    And so it gets worse, and it gets worse
  • 00:50:06
    because they've got their stress
  • 00:50:07
    and our stress smashed on top of each other.
  • 00:50:10
    And we all just feel like, "Ah, should have happened."
  • 00:50:13
    And please hear me clearly, I'm not talking about ambition.
  • 00:50:16
    Ambition is great. Tenacity is great. Drive is great.
  • 00:50:19
    God wants us to run. God wants us to go.
  • 00:50:21
    All those things are true.
  • 00:50:22
    I'm talking about the anxiety riddled
  • 00:50:25
    God's making a mistake. He's not good.
  • 00:50:27
    He's not right as we're trying to follow Him.
  • 00:50:29
    That's what I'm talking about.
  • 00:50:30
    Because Scripture says that God promises
  • 00:50:32
    a peace that passes understanding.
  • 00:50:35
    Like, if you were in the desert on the long path
  • 00:50:37
    and your friends are like, "Wow, you must be
  • 00:50:39
    just like just dying inside."
  • 00:50:41
    You're like, "No, I'm actually I'm pretty good.
  • 00:50:43
    I trust God, I'm following Him.
  • 00:50:44
    I'm following Him everywhere I go in my life."
  • 00:50:46
    That's the peace that passes understanding.
  • 00:50:48
    That's what God wants.
  • 00:50:50
    See, all faithful people always have been able
  • 00:50:54
    to suffer the long road because they trust that God is good
  • 00:50:58
    and they trust that God is right.
  • 00:50:59
    That's always been the case.
  • 00:51:01
    Which I think is why the Israelites
  • 00:51:03
    take the super weird thing with them on the journey.
  • 00:51:06
    Do you remember that in the middle of the story
  • 00:51:08
    it said this, Exodus 13:19:
  • 00:51:23
    Weird, right? I mean, super, super weird.
  • 00:51:24
    This by the way, they leave in the middle of the night.
  • 00:51:27
    No provisions. They don't have time to pack snacks.
  • 00:51:29
    Nothing. The Bible says they leave.
  • 00:51:31
    All they have is some unleavened dough
  • 00:51:32
    that they make unleavened bread with, and nothing else.
  • 00:51:35
    But as they're rushing out, Moses is like,
  • 00:51:38
    "Hey, somebody get Joseph's bones."
  • 00:51:42
    It's like you're going to Myrtle Beach, you know,
  • 00:51:44
    you're doing the drive through the night thing.
  • 00:51:46
    And you're like, kids, "No time for snacks.
  • 00:51:48
    Don't pack that, just -- but somebody
  • 00:51:50
    grab the urn with grandma inside. Grab that.
  • 00:51:53
    I don't know where. Just put it in the minivan.
  • 00:51:55
    Just in the cooler. I don't know, just get it."
  • 00:51:57
    It's weird.
  • 00:51:59
    Sometimes you look at people in the Bible
  • 00:52:01
    like, they're just like robots or, like, super weird people.
  • 00:52:04
    No, this is weird to them, too.
  • 00:52:05
    This is really weird.
  • 00:52:06
    There are not hundreds of stories in the Bible
  • 00:52:08
    of people carrying around their dead relatives.
  • 00:52:10
    That's not a thing. This is very strange.
  • 00:52:12
    So why? Clearly, Joseph made this request.
  • 00:52:16
    Why would Joseph make this ask?
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    Well, Joseph lived 400 years before this.
  • 00:52:21
    He's been dead a long time.
  • 00:52:23
    I don't think he made this request for himself.
  • 00:52:27
    I don't think he cared where his bones ended up at all.
  • 00:52:31
    I think he made this request because he knew,
  • 00:52:35
    he knew that his great, great, great
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    times a whole bunch grandkids one day
  • 00:52:39
    would be on a journey that seemed to be
  • 00:52:40
    taking longer than they could possibly imagine.
  • 00:52:42
    And they'd be wondering, "Is God good and is God right?
  • 00:52:45
    Can I trust His timing? Can I trust His direction?"
  • 00:52:47
    And maybe, just maybe, if they would have
  • 00:52:49
    this super weird thing that they were talking,
  • 00:52:51
    "Why do we have these bones?"
  • 00:52:52
    One day, one of them, the light bulb would go off
  • 00:52:54
    and they'd go, "Oh,
  • 00:52:55
    do you remember the story of Joseph actually?"
  • 00:52:58
    And they would remember his life
  • 00:53:00
    and it would encourage them on their journey.
  • 00:53:02
    See, Joseph, when he was 13,
  • 00:53:04
    he had this magnificent dream from God,
  • 00:53:07
    an amazing dream that he would be this big leader.
  • 00:53:11
    And it was just incredible.
  • 00:53:12
    And then from that moment, his life got worse,
  • 00:53:16
    way worse for 17 years his life just goes down.
  • 00:53:20
    He gets falsely accused of stuff, thrown in prison.
  • 00:53:22
    He's basically on death row.
  • 00:53:24
    And then at 30 years old, 17 years later,
  • 00:53:26
    he gets called to interpret a dream of Pharaoh.
  • 00:53:30
    He does. Pharaoh is blown away.
  • 00:53:31
    And immediately, immediately Pharaoh elevates him
  • 00:53:34
    to being second in command, just under Pharaoh,
  • 00:53:37
    over all of the entire nation of Egypt.
  • 00:53:40
    It's this gradually and then suddenly, life.
  • 00:53:45
    And what I think is that Joseph wanted
  • 00:53:47
    his descendants to see that picture.
  • 00:53:50
    That if you trust God's timing and direction in your life,
  • 00:53:53
    which you can expect growth to look like
  • 00:53:55
    is it's very gradual and then it's sudden.
  • 00:53:58
    There's an old quote from Ernest Hemingway,
  • 00:54:01
    a novel that he wrote called The Sun Also Rises,
  • 00:54:04
    and at one character asks, "How did you go bankrupt?"
  • 00:54:07
    And the other responds, "Two ways,
  • 00:54:10
    Gradually, then suddenly."
  • 00:54:14
    This is the sinkhole syndrome
  • 00:54:15
    that I talked about a few weeks ago.
  • 00:54:17
    We had the sinkhole on stage, and I said,
  • 00:54:18
    if you ever see somebody whose life
  • 00:54:20
    looks like it suddenly collapses.
  • 00:54:22
    "Wow, what happened? That's crazy."
  • 00:54:24
    While the collapse was sudden,
  • 00:54:26
    the erosion under the surface was gradual.
  • 00:54:29
    Now, this definitely works in the negative,
  • 00:54:31
    but it also works in the positive.
  • 00:54:33
    This is exactly how growth is.
  • 00:54:34
    Growth is gradual and then sudden,
  • 00:54:37
    slow, gradual growth will lead to sudden breakthrough
  • 00:54:42
    in your life if you follow God.
  • 00:54:45
    That's what you can expect.
  • 00:54:46
    This happened in my house just this week actually.
  • 00:54:48
    There's somebody in my household
  • 00:54:50
    who's been working tirelessly for two straight years
  • 00:54:53
    against a goal, saw no growth, saw no progress.
  • 00:54:56
    But she kept after it, I mean, day after day.
  • 00:54:58
    If you'd seen her, you would have said
  • 00:55:00
    she was obsessed with this goal.
  • 00:55:02
    And I'm very happy to report to all of you
  • 00:55:05
    that this week my dog Annie
  • 00:55:06
    finally caught her for a squirrel.
  • 00:55:10
    She did.
  • 00:55:12
    She proudly brought it to the back door to give to me.
  • 00:55:17
    And I mean, it was - it was like fresh dead,
  • 00:55:19
    like floppy dead.
  • 00:55:21
    And she was real bummed when I chucked it in the woods.
  • 00:55:23
    But this is growth. This is what it gets back with God.
  • 00:55:30
    It really is. It looks like nothing's happening.
  • 00:55:32
    It looks like, "God, I'm trying so hard.
  • 00:55:34
    I'm going, I'm trying to do the thing
  • 00:55:35
    I think you made me to do. I can't do it."
  • 00:55:37
    All of a sudden, God's going to go,
  • 00:55:38
    "Hey, you're there," and we arrive.
  • 00:55:41
    See, God is not the God of unnecessary delays.
  • 00:55:45
    That's not what He is. Some of us think that.
  • 00:55:47
    Like, "God is just the God who is like,
  • 00:55:49
    He's not paying attention to the clock
  • 00:55:51
    or doesn't really care about me.
  • 00:55:52
    He's just the god of unnecessary delays."
  • 00:55:54
    No, He's the God of,
  • 00:55:55
    "I'm willing to wait until you're ready.
  • 00:55:59
    I'm willing to wait
  • 00:56:00
    until you increase enough to win the battle.
  • 00:56:02
    That's when we're going to get there.
  • 00:56:04
    That's when we're going to arrive."
  • 00:56:05
    This is exactly what I saw in my life.
  • 00:56:07
    At 22 I was looking around going,
  • 00:56:09
    "Everybody else is getting married.
  • 00:56:10
    Why am I not getting married?"
  • 00:56:11
    Eventually, I stop asking that question.
  • 00:56:13
    Instead, I started saying,
  • 00:56:14
    "God, what is it you want to build in me?"
  • 00:56:17
    Instead of why is it taking so long?
  • 00:56:18
    "What do You want to make in me?
  • 00:56:20
    What do You want to refine in me?
  • 00:56:23
    And I'm open to whatever Your timing
  • 00:56:24
    and whatever Your direction is."
  • 00:56:26
    Then over a year and a half of following Him
  • 00:56:28
    more intensely than I ever had, a year and a half
  • 00:56:30
    of more growth than ever, suddenly I met Sarah.
  • 00:56:33
    Six months later, we were married.
  • 00:56:35
    That's a whole another story for another day.
  • 00:56:37
    But gradually, then suddenly.
  • 00:56:42
    In my career 23 years old, I'm in a job.
  • 00:56:44
    I know it's not mine. I know it's not made for me.
  • 00:56:46
    And again, I followed God out of it.
  • 00:56:49
    I quit that job when I felt like He called me to quit that job.
  • 00:56:52
    Crazy decision.
  • 00:56:54
    And for months and months and months, I was unemployed.
  • 00:56:58
    Nothing. It looked like the craziest thing.
  • 00:57:01
    And eventually I stopped asking, "God, why is it taking so long?"
  • 00:57:04
    And instead I said, "God, what do You want to form in me?"
  • 00:57:07
    And God kept picking at my integrity and my character.
  • 00:57:10
    Really specifically, I was a designer,
  • 00:57:12
    and to get a great design job, you needed a portfolio.
  • 00:57:16
    The program to make a portfolio with back then
  • 00:57:18
    was called Adobe Creative Suite. That was the whole thing.
  • 00:57:21
    The only way to buy it was one giant thing of CDs
  • 00:57:24
    that cost $1,200.
  • 00:57:27
    Now I had a student license.
  • 00:57:29
    I had this on my computer already,
  • 00:57:31
    a student license from college.
  • 00:57:32
    Was I a student anymore? No, no, I wasn't.
  • 00:57:36
    But I still had it and I was using it.
  • 00:57:38
    And I felt God said, "Hey, listen,
  • 00:57:40
    if you want to follow me, if you're serious about that,
  • 00:57:42
    I need you to be serious about integrity."
  • 00:57:45
    And so I said okay.
  • 00:57:46
    And I took my entire life savings, $1,200.
  • 00:57:50
    Like, that was the last cent I had,
  • 00:57:52
    and I bought Adobe Creative Suite.
  • 00:57:53
    I used it to make a portfolio.
  • 00:57:55
    I showed up at Crossroads, showed it to somebody.
  • 00:57:58
    Three days later, I had a job.
  • 00:58:00
    Gradually, and then suddenly.
  • 00:58:04
    In my career here, 30 years old, 30.5 something in that range,
  • 00:58:09
    seven and a half years into feeling like
  • 00:58:11
    God should have more for me.
  • 00:58:13
    Again, I stopped asking God why is this taking so long?
  • 00:58:15
    And instead I said, "God, what do You want to change in me?
  • 00:58:18
    What do You want to form in me?"
  • 00:58:19
    And I learned slowly took me so long to get it.
  • 00:58:22
    It's not about me. It's not.
  • 00:58:26
    And wouldn't you know it, all of a sudden my boss left
  • 00:58:28
    and I was promoted into leadership.
  • 00:58:30
    Years, years ago, Brian told me that one day
  • 00:58:34
    he thought I could lead Crossroads,
  • 00:58:36
    but he didn't know if it was going to happen
  • 00:58:38
    or when it was going to happen. Nothing. Years ago.
  • 00:58:41
    And I'll tell you what I've learned in my life
  • 00:58:43
    is that I've never been ready for the thing.
  • 00:58:46
    I've never been ready to arrive until the day I did.
  • 00:58:51
    This is what you can expect if you follow God.
  • 00:58:53
    Even if they were a column of fire
  • 00:58:55
    shooting up into the sky so that you knew with certainty
  • 00:58:59
    this is where God wants me to go.
  • 00:59:00
    What you can expect is it'll take longer than you want.
  • 00:59:04
    It will be gradually, but then suddenly
  • 00:59:07
    you will arrive, suddenly you will get there.
  • 00:59:09
    God is not slow to act. He's not. He's not.
  • 00:59:14
    See, if you follow God, you won't avoid problems,
  • 00:59:17
    you won't avoid te long path,
  • 00:59:19
    but you become strong enough that
  • 00:59:21
    no matter what's in your way, you will overcome all of them.
  • 00:59:23
    God's not slow with you.
  • 00:59:25
    He's patient enough to grow you.
  • 00:59:27
    It says this in 2 Peter, same guy as before. 2 Peter 3:9:
  • 00:59:32
    The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise,
  • 00:59:36
    as some (maybe you) understand slowness.
  • 00:59:40
    Instead, He's patient with you,
  • 00:59:42
    not wanting anyone to perish.
  • 00:59:45
    Not wanting anyone to lose the battle.
  • 00:59:47
    Not wanting anyone to fall off.
  • 00:59:49
    Not wanting anyone to get overwhelmed
  • 00:59:50
    by something they weren't ready for.
  • 00:59:52
    But everyone that come to repentance,
  • 00:59:55
    that means change.
  • 00:59:57
    Have the moment of saying, "God, I see it
  • 01:00:01
    and I want You to increase me."
  • 01:00:03
    See, your job, if you want to follow God,
  • 01:00:07
    is to choose to trust the most simple, basic thing about Him,
  • 01:00:12
    the one that He hides in the epic stories
  • 01:00:14
    so that we'll pay attention,
  • 01:00:16
    to choose to believe that He is both good and He's right.
  • 01:00:22
    We've been talking about where this pillar of fire
  • 01:00:26
    and cloud lead, the long path,
  • 01:00:28
    but I think it's worth asking before we run out of here why.
  • 01:00:31
    Why a pillar of fire? Why a giant cloud?
  • 01:00:35
    Why not just like an arrow, you know, in the sky "that way"?
  • 01:00:38
    Or the line from Google Maps, that blue line through the sand?
  • 01:00:42
    That would have been cool.
  • 01:00:44
    Well, it's because God says, "I'm not trying
  • 01:00:45
    to show you where to go without Me.
  • 01:00:48
    I want you to go with Me so you have
  • 01:00:50
    the blessing of My presence the entire way."
  • 01:00:54
    See, these things were blessings.
  • 01:00:57
    If you're in the desert and it's night,
  • 01:01:00
    it is very dark and it's very cold.
  • 01:01:02
    What do you need?
  • 01:01:04
    You need light and you need warmth.
  • 01:01:06
    God goes, "Yeah, that's what I'm going to provide for you."
  • 01:01:10
    And if you're in the desert and it's hot and it's dry,
  • 01:01:14
    what do you need?
  • 01:01:15
    You need shade and you need moisture,
  • 01:01:18
    like from a giant cloud, enough to give shade
  • 01:01:21
    and moisture to 2 million people.
  • 01:01:25
    Now, fascinatingly, do you know how long
  • 01:01:28
    the pillar of fire and pillar of cloud lasted
  • 01:01:30
    for the nation of Israel?
  • 01:01:33
    24/7 for 40 straight years.
  • 01:01:37
    See, there was never a moment
  • 01:01:38
    from the time they left the desert
  • 01:01:40
    to the time they arrived in the Promised Land,
  • 01:01:42
    there was never a moment they were not with
  • 01:01:45
    the exact thing they needed,
  • 01:01:46
    in the exact moment they needed it,
  • 01:01:48
    every second of every day.
  • 01:01:50
    See, if you choose to follow God, if you'll trust Him
  • 01:01:53
    with His timing and His direction
  • 01:01:55
    that what you'll receive is the blessing of His presence.
  • 01:02:01
    I can't tell you when you're going to arrive.
  • 01:02:05
    I can't tell you when the thing you're waiting for
  • 01:02:08
    is going to happen. I can't.
  • 01:02:09
    Wish I could, can't.
  • 01:02:11
    But what I can tell you is that if you choose to trust God,
  • 01:02:14
    you can count on His blessing the entire way.
  • 01:02:18
    It says this in Nehemiah 9, the author
  • 01:02:20
    reflecting back to God about this story, he says:
  • 01:02:51
    Nothing.
  • 01:02:54
    This is God's promise to you
  • 01:02:55
    and it's the one I want to end on today.
  • 01:02:59
    Before you rush out of here
  • 01:03:00
    and try to take the shortest path home,
  • 01:03:02
    which you will, it's okay.
  • 01:03:05
    I want you to take a moment with God
  • 01:03:08
    and just reflect on where you are in your journey,
  • 01:03:12
    and what picture of Him might mean the most to you this week.
  • 01:03:17
    A literal picture, by the way.
  • 01:03:18
    I want you to take out your phone
  • 01:03:20
    and turn on your camera app.
  • 01:03:22
    Take out your phone, put on your camera
  • 01:03:24
    and get ready to take a picture.
  • 01:03:27
    For some of us, we're in the spot
  • 01:03:30
    where it feels like nighttime.
  • 01:03:33
    We feel alone.
  • 01:03:34
    We don't feel the warmth of God.
  • 01:03:35
    We don't feel the presence of God.
  • 01:03:37
    What we mostly feel is scared about what's coming our way.
  • 01:03:41
    We can't see. We're full of anxiety.
  • 01:03:43
    If that's the type of place you feel in your life,
  • 01:03:46
    "I can't see where to go.
  • 01:03:47
    I feel directionless.
  • 01:03:48
    God, I need to see your path for me."
  • 01:03:50
    If you need His light and His warmth,
  • 01:03:53
    I want you to take a picture of the pillar of fire.
  • 01:03:57
    And I want you to make it your phone wallpaper this week,
  • 01:04:03
    so that every time you take your phone out of your pocket
  • 01:04:06
    to check the time, to check your calendar,
  • 01:04:07
    look at your email, check the scores, whatever it is,
  • 01:04:10
    you just have a little quick moment of going,
  • 01:04:12
    "Oh, that's right, God, you're with me right now.
  • 01:04:15
    I'm trying to follow You."
  • 01:04:16
    And just have a quick prayer with God.
  • 01:04:18
    God, I trust Your timing. I trust Your direction.
  • 01:04:21
    I believe You're always good.
  • 01:04:22
    I believe You're always right.
  • 01:04:23
    If there's anything You want me to see
  • 01:04:25
    or get or lean into, I'm open.
  • 01:04:28
    Just have that conversation this week.
  • 01:04:31
    For those of us, we're in a spot
  • 01:04:33
    where life just feels exhausting.
  • 01:04:36
    We're in the desert and it is scorching sun.
  • 01:04:39
    We are dry. We are exhausted.
  • 01:04:41
    Many of us, by the way, the thing we're waiting for,
  • 01:04:43
    it's not like this grand goal.
  • 01:04:46
    Some of us are just in the season of life.
  • 01:04:48
    Sarah and I find ourselves here.
  • 01:04:50
    We just feel like every day is the same.
  • 01:04:52
    Every day is exhausting.
  • 01:04:54
    Raising kids day after day after day.
  • 01:04:56
    And the thing we're waiting for is just something.
  • 01:05:00
    Something fun. Something exciting.
  • 01:05:02
    Just something different.
  • 01:05:05
    And when you're in that season
  • 01:05:07
    or your season of waiting, you're tired,
  • 01:05:08
    you're exhausted that I don't know if I can keep going
  • 01:05:10
    what you need is God's shade from the scorching sun.
  • 01:05:14
    You need God's moisture in your life.
  • 01:05:17
    If that's what you need,
  • 01:05:18
    I want you to take a picture of the cloud.
  • 01:05:22
    I want you to make it your phone background.
  • 01:05:24
    And I want you every time
  • 01:05:25
    you pull it out of your pocket this week
  • 01:05:27
    to have a conversation with God and to say,
  • 01:05:29
    "I believe You are who You say You are,
  • 01:05:31
    and I'm asking You to be shade in my life.
  • 01:05:33
    If there's anything You want to do in me,
  • 01:05:34
    if there's any program for me to get with, I'm in God.
  • 01:05:37
    I trust Your timing. I trust Your direction.
  • 01:05:39
    You're good and You're right."
  • 01:05:41
    Let me pray for all of us.
  • 01:05:42
    God, thank You so much for the powerful pictures
  • 01:05:44
    that we only get through the most epic wonders
  • 01:05:47
    in all of scripture.
  • 01:05:48
    I'm asking that these truths would sink into our hearts,
  • 01:05:51
    God, that we would believe them.
  • 01:05:53
    And I'll just say, Lord, I trust You with the timing in my life.
  • 01:05:56
    You have never been a day late.
  • 01:05:59
    You would never just cause of delay.
  • 01:06:00
    God, You were always right about the timing
  • 01:06:03
    and I believe You always will be.
  • 01:06:06
    Give us the faith to trust You
  • 01:06:08
    and the peace that comes from it. Amen.
  • 01:06:13
    - Hey, thanks again for joining us.
  • 01:06:14
    These experiences can be so powerful,
  • 01:06:16
    and the Holy Spirit can be very, very present.
  • 01:06:18
    And so it can often lead to
  • 01:06:20
    these intense, drawn out emotions
  • 01:06:22
    where it might be helpful
  • 01:06:23
    to have a conversation with someone.
  • 01:06:25
    So if you're online or in the app,
  • 01:06:26
    head over to our chat section and real people
  • 01:06:29
    on our team like myself and Andy
  • 01:06:31
    would love to connect with you and pray with you.
  • 01:06:33
    That's all we have for this week.
  • 01:06:34
    Thanks for watching.

Process, journal or discuss the themes of this article - here's a few questions to get the ball rolling...

Welcome to the Weekend-Follow Up!

This is content that reflects on the Weekend message and how it can apply to your life. Each week, your group will discover what God might be saying to you, and how you can respond through a group discussion.

  1. When was the last time you found yourself lost? How did you find your way back?

  2. What stood out to you most from the message?

  3. Where in your life do you feel like you’re falling behind? Or think that you should’ve arrived by now?

  4. How does that feeling of falling behind influence your decision-making?

  5. Looking back, where have you had slow or gradual growth in your life? Did you think of it as growth at the time?

  6. Read 1 Peter 5:10.

    What would it look like for you to embrace suffering when it comes?

  7. Which facet of God’s presence do you need this week? The Pillar of Fire (light and warmth) or The Pillar of Smoke (shade and moisture). Why?

  8. What’s one step you can take this week to let go of your stopwatch and build trust in God’s timing?

  9. Let’s end our time praying together. You can say something like;

    “God, thank you for building us up, strengthening us, and perfecting us. Thank you for training us up for the big moments, and for keeping us from jumping in before we’re ready. Help us see our suffering the way you see it. Amen.”

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Bonus Questions

Check these out if you’re on a roll and want to go a little deeper.

  1. Where do you see yourself in the Israelites or their story?
  2. Read 2 Peter 3:9. Do you find it encouraging? Challenging? Both? Share your thoughts with the group.
That’s it for this week - see you next time!

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